Hands tremble, heart races.
Another test result is in.
I sit patiently with sweat down my face,
hoping the answers I seek are within
Doctor tells me to breathe
it's not my worst fears,
the results are normal again
so no need for the tears.
"But doc," I say, "I'm not normal at all."
"My body is aching, my legs are weak,
my head won't stop pounding,
and I feel like a freak."
So how many more tests
can I endure that say okay,
when I'm not normal at all
and I struggle every single day.
So, doc, tell it to me straight
is this all in my head?
Am I unnormally normal,
or is it more than I dread?
At what point do I give up?
When will the agony of unknown take over?
Do I stay unnormally normal,
or keep searching to recover?
What do you think?
